Grace Furball

2010-05-31T23:28:00.001+12:00

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see you beloveds ;)

2010-05-30T14:11:00.001+12:00

You're the reason for my smile on my face. Your love, makes my world go round.

2010-05-29T16:19:00.002+12:00

I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
cos you are the one

I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child who's lost its way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
since you've gone away

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

They tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Recalling times gone by
And crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
'till you come to me
yeah

I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
You used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are no words that could describe how I miss you
and I miss you everyday
yeah

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
I lay my head against your heart
I know I'm home
I know I'm home
I know I'm home

and I'm never gonna leave your side
and I'm never gonna leave your side again
still holding on girl
I won't let you go
cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home

If you're not the one, then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine, then why does your heart return my call?
If you you are not mine, would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you, then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you, then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me, then why does this distance name my life?
If you're not for me, then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through and I hope
You are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray that you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss your body and soul so strong
That it takes my breath away
And I breath you into my heart
And I pray for the strength to stand today

'Cause I love you whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And though my heart is by your side

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you, then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there anyway that I can stay in your arms?

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do

I will be strong, I will be faithful
'Cause I'm counting on
A new beginnin'
A reason for livin'
A deeper meanin', yea

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And when my stars are shinin' brightly in the velvet sky
I'll make a wish to send it to Heaven
Then make you want to cry
The tears of joy for all the pleasure in the certainty
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of
The highest powers in lonely hours
(Lonely hours)
The tears devour you

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Oh can't you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes
'Cause it's standin' right before you
All that you need will surely come
Uhh hu yea

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish
I'll be your fantasy
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love
Be everything that you need
I'll love you more with every breath
Truly, madly, deeply do
(I love you)
Huh huh

I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I want to lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

And I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
Well I want to live like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me

Huh huh uhh
Yea uhh huh
La la la duh duh huh
La la la duh duh huh
Uhh hu

2010-05-28T18:14:00.001+12:00

2010-05-27T15:38:00.001+12:00

Oh well so quickly my days in high school's numbered. Today's finally the last day of term 2, counted as my second last term for the year. Next terms gonna be hectic. I'm so afraid of doing badly. I cried my eyeballz out when i got my report card this morning. I knew i didn't do well alr, but idkw when it was dismissal time, when i was about to walk out of class, my eyes slowly was overwhelmed with tears of regret, disappointment. But, i love my friends they're really great people. Esp yingli who's always there at the right time. Everytime i cried in school, somehow, she'd be the one supplying me tissues and hugs. I can't imagine whats sec school life without a friend like you. Hehe, love you yl :) My darling becca slept through today's school and was absent :( tml marks the start of the june holidayyyyyz :) Which also means its time for me to work hard. Monday's chinese o's, who the hell's revising?! I know shit about that subject. Just gonna concentrate on my meant to ace subjects like my double math, eng, comb science and dnt. Idc if i don't have a life now to you. Idc if i'd be mia from my social networks which i know i'm neglecting really badly alr.

2010-05-25T21:42:00.000+12:00

We've been doing practically nothing in school since our mye's ended. All we did was to just sit on ours sits allowing our butts to rot or sleep our sleepy heads off. Life's a bore. I rather have lessons going on! Haven't touched my books or even take a glance at them for ages too! This sucks. Anw had napfa today, as usual it sucked :) I failed shutter run hahaha joke! Was super not satisfied with my sit and reach, i had only 54! :( Joanne got highest for girls, 56! Shermaine was a joke during pull ups, super funny, no actually everyone was funny.Sit ups lucky number was 31 haha. the jumps were like whatever i anyhow jump only hehehe. Dnt's forever rush hour. I rmb how slack we were last year, this year's time seems to fly :( I need helppppppp :(

hehe, pix taken days ago in facebook :*

it was meant for jeramy to laugh at but hahaha whatever. I just felt like posting it :)

2010-05-24T19:20:00.000+12:00

I am falling asleep

2010-05-23T21:32:00.000+12:00

I'd take your heart with mine, lock em' up tgt and melt the key. We'd belong tgt, forever :)

Weekends passed uber quickly! Overslept today, so didn't go to church. Met kristlyn baby for lunch. Hehehe, she's so cute :) kkkkk so i've rotted this whole week away, haha at last i found myself rotting away. Think i'm most prolly gonna rot more. The sun today was horrible, i wish that the whole of june hols would be raining cats and dogs so i'd feel satisfied staying home mugging :) Kay actually i've nothing to blog. i'm just boredddddddd. Cheena o's in just a week's time! Haha like i care -_- Van baby it's been a year. I miss you so much, where are you? :'(

2010-05-22T20:25:00.000+12:00

I spent today with my butt glued to the wooden floor and phone left thrown on my bed. Cut cut glue glue cut glue paste waste strength on the damn glue gun but finally i'm done with the cardboard model, did major changes here and there, i think i'm gonna die when i do the real model. I think i'd even dream of doing it! Anw, i've planned my june hols alr, how exciting (not being sacastic) :) Hehe. Gonna get the 'go back to school' schedule on monday! And yl reminded me that chinese o's like just round the corner, first week of the hols! Die alr luhs :( Most prolly gonna go over to her place on weds the week after this :) Hehe, great. Becca charl and i planned stuff too, but i'd be the most absent one i think hehe sorry baboon gurl. Had ballet ytd, puisan and i were damn funny, stand infront stone awhile then stupid esther and pat behind stone with us!~ ytd was the longest time ever i stayed up to just chat on msn. Showed jeramy alot of funny pictures from the past years, dk how did i bomb so much things to him! o.o Anw, texting my cute baboon cow gurl now, she wants to diet. HAHAHA. Okay, i shall encourage you to eat :D Love you baby1cowbaboongurl hehehe.

Would you give up the entire forest without walking through it all, just for that one?

2010-05-19T18:44:00.001+12:00

My two dearest furs wanted to meet me today. Haha and their not related. Sorry wil and mc, i'd meet wilfur when i'm free someday after school soon ok! Haha and mcfur, i hope to see you in school as often as i can. Rmb how we used to be? I miss you. Anyway, i'm really looking forward to my june hols. Though i know that i wouldn't be going out much etcetc. This june holiday's gonna be a time for relaxation and hardwork. Can't wait for yingli to come over to my place like how we used to when we were bestfriends. I'm really happy that we've cleared our misunderstanding. I was really glad when i saw your text ytd. I thought we haven't had hope. Yingli, i'm sorry :( Anw, baking at my place uh! :) Phew, i'm so relieved. I've cleared all my friendship problems. I'm happy with all my friends arnd. Esp,yl. I brought back two cardboards ytd and realised that i could only make 2 big circles and 6 small cylinders with it -_- And my glue gun has issues. I miss mom and dad :( Big sist's coming back with tomyam hiahiahia. Meow's coming along. Guess i'm gonna see him really often these days! Kkkk, time to clear my mess before he comes tgt with my sist. Bye happy humanz ;) Btw, i've made tumblr @gracefurball ;)

2010-05-18T16:55:00.000+12:00

Finally, my mye's officially over. I know many idiots had their's over and done with long agoooo but yessss! Mine's over. Hiahiahia. No school tml, marking day. Shiock, i want to sleeeeeep. But still, o's 'round the corner. Sighhh. Can't stop working hard. Just a few more months, lets all work hard. Its gonna be worth it ;) Woke up at 4am this morning to kiss my parents good bye. Sigh, i almost became a cry baby :( Kinda screwed today's dnt paper cos i didn't read up on the 555 timer, 20 marks flyfly :( Haiiiii. Nvrm, its mye. There's still a second chance. HA. Went down to j8 after the papers with jerv and sherm. Had pizzahut for lunch, hehe. Then went to sasa and got new falses. Long time since i've worn them in pictures no? Haha. Kkkkkk, i'm so bored!!!~ Searching on techniques to improve on my pirouettes, i hate to see the word of disappointment written on ms mccully's face every friday evening. I was better then what i am now, i used to be more determined and i used to be one of her favourite girls...

2010-05-17T17:58:00.000+12:00

Physics paper wasn't bad at all. Buttttt amaths was killer. Sighhhhhh, i didn't expect it to be that tedious. It was like much more tougher then paper 1. Paper 2 always kills. Damn, i dread for thurs to come. Anw, tml's marks freeeeeeedom. Tehehe, no more papers for afew days? Lol. Chinese o's on the 31st. But wtf cares, i think i've no hope in cheena. Funny to think that i got an A for it during psle. Mom and dad's going hk tml, i'm saddddd. To think of the times when they nag at me, but oh well, its for my own good no? Which parent wouldn't want their child to do good. I hate school days when my parents aren't around. I gotta walk up, go to school, come back from school without them fetching me here and there :( My parents are so sweeeeet to me aren't they? :) Hehe, they always buy me kinder joy when either of them's reminded of me, which is everytime. Hiahia! But, i'm forever a baby in their eyes :( Last 2 papers tml, good luck to all sweeties :)

2010-05-17T17:13:00.001+12:00

An album of love.

2010-05-14T23:25:00.001+12:00

2010-05-14T22:59:00.001+12:00

Hi my lovelies :)

i'm here to blog to tell you how bored i am. Im bored im bored im bored im bored. Shall change my blog layout and haiiii i don't know. I'm like having the post examinations mood alr. Not good not good~ My mye's still dragging :(

Letz see... social studies was damn f up. I threw 14 marks away cos i couldn't finish the damn sbq. And ps it was an easy paper. Nvrm, had emath paper 1 after that, confidence went down down down :( Lit was fine i thinkkkkkk. Chem was extremely 'moley' bth so many questions on mole. Amaths wasn't as bad as expected but i forgot the most basics like binomial, wtfttm. Today's emaths paper like f up only, srsly. I heard everyone's calcultor being stabbed with frustrated lil minds like mine. I threw away so many marks like free only. Hao sad worrrrrz :'(

Weekends must chiong for amaths paper2 and physics and science mcq and dnt. Whyyyyyyyy. K i just realised how late it is alr, no wonder my eye's getting smaller. Yawnz. Shall feed my babies with wormies and drop dead on my bed. Sweeeee, life's great. I'm getting more immuned to my study siao days. I likeyz.

2010-05-10T19:44:00.001+12:00

love?

Idkw i'm so free to do so, but i'm looking back at my pictures from 09. Imy, imy so much. I know its not obvious. After so much i've did, i know i've no face left to tell you imy. Its been months since i had a conversation with you. You were my, my bestfriend. I thought back at sec 2, i failed history, i cried so badly, you were the first to come up to me, you were the one that offered me that hug. Our friendship grew. Though there were times i felt annoyed by you, i never really hated you. No, i never hated you. You were there on my birthday. I fucked you up on your birthday. I missed the times you'd call me over nothing just to gossip. When i see you talking to others laughing away. I feel that i was a great fool to let you go. You were a great friend. I wish i handled your 'out of point conversations' without being annoyed by you. I wish i could let time rewind. I wish we were back on talking terms like how we were. Often i dream of us, being friends again. I wish... i wish...

2010-05-09T16:35:00.000+12:00

I'M NERD. HI 8)
Let it rain, let it rain, let it rain~~

2010-05-03T20:55:00.000+12:00

Hehaho, hello people. At last i'mz herez toz postz a proper postz? Ok not so proper. Actually... i've alot of pictures to load, but... i lost my phone's usb cable so i'm only left with my camera's pictures. But i haven't brought it along with me for the past few days/weeks so no pix! :( I couldn't find my other cam's battery carger. Harhar, i'm losing things thanks to my stm. Well. Mid year's started alr, how're you guys doing/preparing ofr it? Ha, i think no one actually gives a fuck about mid years. Only the geeky and nerdy. And here's one. Hello hello hello :) So just a quick update on what i've been up to..

Class went to the parliment's house on monday. Boy was it a bore. Stupid becca kept falling asleep. Her head in the reflection in the glass panel made it terribly hard for me to hold my laughter. But i did ok! And that day, meant alot cos i found out alot. Thanks uh, fancy us treating you as friend. And you, my close friend. I always choose the wrong friends. I am fucking disappointed in you k. If you're reading this, we'd settle this all tml. I hope we got it all wrong. Forgot what happened on weds. Thurs and fri was eng and mt mye. Was pretty fine i think. Well i can't comment cos everytime i say its easy i either do really well or bad. So idw to risk. But surprisingly i think shinese was ok. Lmaolmao but i'm not sure if i'd pass it stiill. Lol, damn subject. Rest starts on the 12th.

Weekends was nerdy for mez. Tuition on sat morning, homez, washed my fatties cage myself!!! Which somehow made me clean my mess in my room.. So i changed my bedsheets and cleared my damn table. At last i could see the table top. Below's a picture of my new cozy corner. Lmaolmaolmao. *ps canny oinkoink! See my wall, your famous drawing tehehe :* K i'mz a busy girl. Sunday waz mothers' day lunchy at my uncle's restaurant with reletives altogether. Today, i got dragged out of bed cos my mom wanted me to paint my sister's shelf. Why? Cos i said i liked painting such stuffs as they were relevant to dnt. Lololllllll wth!

2010-05-03T20:19:00.001+12:00

When I'm Kissing You, Miranda Cosgrove

Sparks fly
Its like electricity
I might die
When I forget how to breath
You get closer and there’s
No where in this world I’d rather be
Time stops
Like everything around me
Its frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things
I’ve never seen

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

Past loves
They never got very far
Walls of made sure
I’ve got in my heart
And I promise I wouldn’t do this till
I knew it was right for me

But no one (no one)
No guy that I met before
Could make me (make me)
Feel so right and secure
And have you noticed
I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

I’ve never felt nothing like this
You’re making me open up
No point in even trying to fight this
It kinda feels like it’s love

Cause when I’m kissing you
My senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece
I’ve been trying to find
Falls right into place
You’re all that it takes
My doubts fade away
When I’m kissing you

When I’m kissing you
It all starts making sense
And all the questions
I’ve been asking in my head
Like are you the one should I really trust
How clear it becomes
When I’m kissing you

2010-04-25T19:51:00.000+12:00

Sure sure, it takes to hands to clap. Did i say i'm not at fault at all? Hahaha no right. Yawns. Both so good at bootlicking each other and friends. Aw, thiz iz boringz. So many people actually knows the truth behind it all. But too bad some's blinded by those fabricated tales.

2010-04-25T17:51:00.000+12:00

Swee, i help her 'make famous' her blog. Your nuffnang can go earn dirty money alr :)

Awwww, tml's gonna be another boring day. I know my blog's dead with webs all over. My days have been really good. Hehe. I'm starting to enjoy studying :)

2010-04-24T17:49:00.001+12:00

@DEFINEPASSION Good one.

Fancy you scolding me in your blog. Still show my url. Wow. Hmmm 'fucking seduce my boyfriend', 'skin got problem still wannt to touch my bf', 'fuck you seriously. go look into the mirror and look at yourself', 'is it cos he got tattoo and he very BIG!', 'that bloody fool lor..hais. all her boyfriend she is a third party. once she got the guy, she start saying the guy's gf. wtf right? she's from Whitley. lousy girl lousy school.nvm.', 'until i see the whore's blog i decided to post this up instead'

Whoa, shoot me until sibeh song hor? Njy, please takecare of your girlfriend. I didn't start this dick, girl you started it out of nothing. Firstly you dk the true story behind this so called r/s. I seduce your boyfriend? Wow, which part of your eyes saw that. So sorry i my skin is totally fine alr, i believe in karma so maybe you'd get it someday too :) I look at the mirror everyday, i think i look fine. even without that dramatic eye lash you put so often. And tattoos are so common nowadays. No one thinks about what big what pussy alr luh. You from what generation? Hahaha. I think only you think that way. lousy girl lousy school? Nice. I can't help but to agree that i'm from a lousy school. But for fuck's sick at least i'm in express so don't compare. And you're younger then me, want compare knowledge uh. Stop being childish. I've enough. Nb, how long ago alr still want bring up. No life.

2010-04-17T20:00:00.000+12:00

Time to sort things out, time to get my mind working, time to stop fooling myself? Fuck :(

Kaixinnnnnn, how. Idkwtd :(

2010-04-16T22:36:00.000+12:00

fools you.

2010-04-11T17:43:00.000+12:00

Celine Dion - Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Celine Dion - My Love

My love, we have seen it all
The Endless confession,The rise and fall
As fragile as a child
Lately I'm sorry I can't hold a smile

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must've made it clear right from the start

My love, can you give me strength
Somehow I forgot how to ease my pain
I know I'm right where I belong
Something from nothing never proved me wrong

But I stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Did you know I take the time for you

Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I must've made it clear right from the start

I would share my whole life with you
Would you do the same for me
I would give all I am to you
Would you do the same for me

And I will stand tall to get by
No matter how hard I try to hide
Could you see I've been brave
Did you notice all my mistakes
There were times I could feel you read my mind

Did you know I take the time for you
Did you know that I would see you through
Did you know that I would play the part
I know I made it clear right from the start

Celine Dion - When I Need You

When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heart beat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I wont be traveling forever
It's cold out, but hold out and do like I do

When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you babe
It's only a heartbeat away

It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey, that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be traveling a lifetime
It's cold out but hold out and do like I do
When I need you

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heart beat away

Celine Dion - To Love You More

Take me back in the arms I love
Need me like you did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that you wanted more

Don't go you know you will break my heart
She won't love you like I will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And you know I'll be standing here still

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

See me as if you never knew
Hold me so you can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make you see
All the things that your heart needs to know

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way

I'll be waiting for you
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love you more
You will see I can give you
Everything you need
Let me be the one to love you more

Elton John - Can You Feel The Love Tonight

There's a calm surrender to the rush of day
When the heat of the rolling world can be turned away
An enchanted moment, and it sees me through
It's enough for this restless warrior just to be with you
And can you feel the love tonight
It is where we are
It's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer
That we got this far
And can you feel the love tonight
How it's laid to rest
It's enough to make kings and vagabonds
Believe the very best
There's a time for everyone if they only learn
That the twisting kaleidoscope moves us all in turn
There's a rhyme and reason to the wild outdoors
When the heart of this star-crossed voyager beats in time with yours

Westlife - I Wanna Grow Old With You

Another day
Without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now I know
How much it means
For you to stay
Right here with me

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along

The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad I can't take it any longer

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

Things can come and go I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you
Sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you

2010-04-10T17:12:00.000+12:00

Baby, now i need to hold you tight
Now and forever, my love

I know my blog die alr luhs, wadeva. My ear hurts, fk. Okay, i just started my science tuition which is major killer. Ok. A/EMaths breeze breeze breeze, but everytime i get too confident i have my downfall so fk it too. Humanities had never been my best subjects, and i couldnt care less. Same goes for chinese, i totally forgot that there was oral on friday so i just talked cock, or maybe i can even say.. i didn't even manage to talk those cock out in chinese cos i didn't know what words to use, zz. I wish i only took double maths and dnt. Life would be great then! :(

2010-04-05T18:02:00.000+12:00

My valentine

HELLOHA. Look at my eye bags in the picture above, Sad face, sad face!! Ok..... today's school was not awesome but fine. still, it was boring. Had many free periods cos 2 teachers were absent. Stayed back after school for dnt didn't chiong much but i found a damn cool webby. http://www.toxel.com/ the designs were damn cool, hehaho. I saw some damn cool interior designs too in anothe website, forgot which though. Damn chio i tell you :) Tehehe, my dream job!!!~ Ok, should stop dreaming. I need something that'd drive me to study hard!! Hehehe, byes babies :-* And i realised people don't like to comment! Whooo, daddy's home :)

2010-04-03T19:47:00.001+12:00

You come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

My 'long' weekend's passing so quickly. Ytd was good friday, went to church. Today's saturday, i went for amaths tuition, puisan came over to my place. Helped her with her council thingy hehe. Ok, i'm so lazy to blog. Bye people :)

2010-03-31T16:51:00.001+12:00

I can trust in love again

HEHE YAY, TML IS THE LAST SCHOOL DAY OF THIS WEEK & ITS GONNA BE APRIL FOOLS DAY :) My class is damn mean, i think they're gonna plan some thingys~ Oh well, shall not get involved :) but, there's pe tml :( Aw, i dread tml to come. I hate thurdays before recess!:( I've been slacking for the whole of this month, tsktsktsk. Wo shi ma tong gurlz luh, zZzZz. Anw, i'm overwhelmed with damn mosquito bites. Right danny? :(

2010-03-29T21:48:00.002+12:00

Pictures from the zoo on sunday :) with mc, shumin, carlina and saffron. Hehe. Realised i've pictures solo with everyone but carlina, hmmm. Maybe the next time when we go out! :) But my fasles had problem ytd zzzZzzzZZ :( hello, i took more then two hours to post these all, at lastttttt~~~!!! ^^v

2010-03-28T22:57:00.002+12:00

Happy 15th McHong, my bestest friend, my greatest furry.

Furryfacey, we've been through so much haven't we? Met in o8 when you joined cheerleading, i was stunned ttm! Cos i never expected us to become friends, i only heard of people going around saying 'This year's juniors got one damn shuai one' lmaolmao! So it was you! Haha! Then slowly, we became closer, and closer. I still remember that day, when you went so drunk and you spilled everything out to me, i couldn't take it, lol! So i kinda ignored you~ Hmm... well that was funny. But anw, from that you made new friends and got involved in love, which was good! :) We didn't contact much when you were in a relationship cos well.. just reasons of why we didn't contacts luh k. Haha. Later in 09, you felt sad and rejected, i texted you up immediately, idw i did that, but it was just a normal reaction for me, to you. You were heartbroken, i felt your pain. Somehow. Also, we bacame as close as how we used to be, which never happened to me and any of my friends before. You're a unique one. You always talked to me about her, about how you missed her, how much you loved her, how hurt you were. I felt the same pain for you at that same moment when you shared them all with me. maybe that's how it goes, that trues friend share their happy times and sad times tgt. You, michelle hong, you mean so much to me. When you decided to give love another try this year, somehow, i didn't want you to. Why? Because i didn't want to see you hurt again, i didn't want our history to repeat about not being able to keep contact so often, i hated it when you told me there was a new girl in your life, i swear i hated it alot. I used to be the most impt one in your life, the one that'd be there for you first.I felt that i wouldn't be needed after you've had her. Like how it all happened in 08/09. I regretted spending so much time with that fucker in the eoy hols instead of spending them with you like how i said that it was supposed to be. I hate myself for choosing him over you. I realised, love isn't something i'm to choose over you. You're my special, my greatest friend. Truly. I love you, i love you really much, more then a friend, but not a lover so don't worry hahaha. This's our 3rd year of friendship, i want us to stay in each other's life always. I want to still be able to have you as my pillar of support throughout, i want you to stay and be my listening ear to whatever i rant about, i want you to stay for everything, everything. I'd do the same for you. I was really glad that i finally managed to celebrate your birthday with you, and i expect more in the coming years! :) Oh yes... hope you'd last long with sharon anyway, haha. Plssss, i'm not unfriendly! Haha! I hope you had fun at the zoo today with shumin, carlina(?), saffron and i. And i hope you take care of that smiley facey balloon! Hehe, and make use of those cute tissues! Hahaha! Love you furry, and again, Happy 15th Birthday you furry facey. Hehe :-*

2010-03-28T10:18:00.000+12:00

I find it really ironic when people posts in their blog that they'd never fall in love ever again, and months later, or maybe weeks later they've got someone new in their hearts. Then why the fuck do you say that you'd never fall ever again? Never say never to something you know that you would never not do. Love.......... ha.

2010-03-24T20:50:00.000+12:00

The truth hurts, but lie's worst

I thought i've done better, i should have done better, why isn't it working out. Fmlfmlfml.
I AM SO FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH MYSELF.
If my get that damn grade again, i'd fucking ask someone to slap me hard.
Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh.
Screw it screw it screw it.
I wonder how's the rest of my ppr for last term, hmmmmmm.
MY NEW RESOLUTION FOR 2010 IS TO FUCKING BEAT YOU IN AS MANY SUBJECTS AS I CAN! (I know i sound childish...)
Mark my fucking words, i'm gonna work hard.
Idk why am i so worked up. Fuckkk, got the o's confirmation slip dates alr.
How? :(

2010-03-22T20:26:00.001+12:00

Don't forget about us

Phoned with shermaine till 1230, wished that bitch happy birthday at 1215 and agn in the night and she kaopeh say i wish her so late, oh welllzzz. Haha, church @ 9am. Daddy fetched me to somerset and he drove around till shermaine reached cos i didn't wanna wait alone, teehehe. Met my clique. Caught a movie, endings was damn wtf but funny i guess haha. Joshua came to meet charl and fabien came to meet shrmaine. Love birdies. Ok, knn stupid randy ask my watch so many sick videos. My fingers shaking like fuck. That stupid ghost suddenly pop out and the sound scare me, good thing i didnt blast if not i'd fucking faint -_- Then another one some monster turtle go eat some mouse, fuck sick. Made me wanna puke so badly. Yay yay yay. Fwower huahua got my book alr, hehe! ^^ Oh my clique's damn cool. We all got the same score for english ct.

Happy Birthday Bitch for lyfe ♥

Thinkin' about how we became friends, i realised we were somehow 'forced' to be friends. Funny. Haha! Knew who you were since sec 1 cos you were a damn noisy figure in our batch. At that time we were still normal schoolmates, hi-bye kind. Then sec 2 you became some guailan shit, i hated you alot. Think idk you spreaded alot of cb rumors about me, all anyhow bomb only, bth! And many people knew i was damn against you. Cool dung. End of sec 2 when we got streamed into different classes and we fucking got to the same class. I cfm you got curse and swear like one bitch. Am i not rightttttttttttt!? Haha, nvrm, i did the same. Then school started, you shout i shout back. War sia, so fun. Cos we nyp-ed alot tgt, we fight/argue until sian and we became friends. Ok, that was interesting cos i never fucking expected us to be friends, neither to be of the same clique. Oh well, our clique's sick anw, almost all of us had problems with each other before, hehehe. That's why we rock ^^ Anw, gracey's a very good listening ear you know, so you can bomb anything out to me too. Always here for you, anw, i haven't seen you cried before, please cry soon so i can see your tears okay? Hehe. Love you bitchy baby 3 ^^v

2010-03-19T15:50:00.000+12:00

Yesyesyes, it's not your eyes. It's my blog's problem. Was fooling around trying to mix 3 different layouts tgt, so yeah.... i got this shit out. Anw, i'd fix it later after i come back from ballet alright. Hehe, this is fun, but fuck. I spent afew hours on this, when i was supposed to be burried under my books. Didn't have a good night sleep thanks to my cousin that made us sleep side ways on the bed just cos she felt like it -_- So.... i wasted another day. Fuck it. So i'm left with tml and tonight. Maybe sunday too. Hehe. Ok, bye lovelies :)

2010-03-18T13:04:00.000+12:00

I hate it when people get tgt and don't trust their other half. seriously fuck it, do you think that its just you and him revolving around this god damn world? FUCK NO OKAY.

2010-03-17T19:02:00.002+12:00

Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it

Well those were picture's from ytd.... anw, i'm in a better mood now alr ;)

School was great today, i buried myself with dnt, sibeh song! :) Did alot of sketching until i almost died. Qt came up and down often to visit me doing my folio, hehe. While i irritated fwower in smsing. 1e2/2e2 guys main clique never fail to make me smile. Their awesome idiots ^^ Okaaaaaay, so ng made me go down to take pictures of the ncc guys eating army food, hahaha their food looks disgusting ok! Glad i'm a girl man. Tehehehe, gonna pity my whoever next time :) Ok bye! :) I ate my tomyam today!

2010-03-16T23:37:00.006+12:00

Bitch bitch bitch, mood fucking hot now. Don't ask me so many questions luh, knn. Anw, today was a good day to start with, or maybe i was just in a fking good mood or whatever dickhead. Enough's enough. One day i'd fking burst i swear. Nbcb. Spam you with pictures from today tml if i feel like, bye lil fuckers. _l_

Oh and yes, if you've got a fking problem with my makeup its your problem, you huan lo huan lo huan lo, MY FACE OR YOUR FACE. Cb one, guys don't know shit about girls luh k. False eyelash equals to thick eye makeup. Yeah sureeeee. Btw, this isn't the reason of why i'm so fking pissed. But i'd stfu ok. Shut up people, just shut up.

I wish this fking world were to be mute. How peaceful _l_

2010-03-15T19:18:00.000+12:00

I can't help falling in love with you

I feel sad for myself, when i see other couples so in love when their girlfriends blog about their boyfriends. I realised, i do feel jealous at times. But i don't trust love, it makes me feel sick at the thought of love.

I remember how it felt like, to blog for the man you loved. That feeling that excites your whole damn self, that special feeling only meant for him. Thinking back of the times when i first got tgt with you, when i'd stare at my phone for almost 24 hours just for your textes, when i'd stay awake just to hear your voice when you called, when my heart pumped so quickly everytime i met you, when i bid unwilling goodbyes to you everytime i had to leave, when i thought i've finally found my other half, when things started to screw up that made me cry to sleep, when everything finally came to an end, the end of us. Maybe you were right, it wasn't even right to begin with. I wondered, why, why did i even bother posting up how hurt i was by you, how much i loved you, how much i missed you. When everything was just a god damn lie. I allowed you to know my weak spots, my bad. Now, now i finally realised how foolish i was in your eyes. So, i'm still a toy in your eyes. Happy, you come back in my life, not happy you get out. Please, i've feelings too alrights. I know you're still with that whoever, but here's something. I DON'T FUCKING CARE ANYMORE.

I posted this post out for you not because i missed you. but i fucking want to let you know that, my heart had long stopped beating for you. I no longer love you. I no longer miss you. I've threw those memories i had with you away, away with my tears. They're all gone now. So please, stop coming back with the same motive of wanting me to love you back anymore. I've suffered enough, and i'm ending my sufferings here. Lets just treat it as, we've never loved each other ever, ever before. Anyway, we were never officially together. So lets just treat it as my final goodbye.

2010-03-14T21:58:00.000+12:00

You are the only exception

Tehehehe pictures from ytd when i was playing with my webcammy. Today was a damn shiock day. I slept and slept and slept. Sleep alr, then ate my yummy jellyhearts. Hehe, jellyhearts are yumz ttm. Fwower say he'd grow em' for me ^^v Tehehe. Then spent the rest of the time reading my book. Hehe. And it rained+thuinderstorm. Hehehe, i loved today :)

2010-03-14T03:32:00.003+12:00

2010-03-13T23:18:00.003+12:00

You're such a good liar

Like after sooooo lonnnnnnngggg, i finally went out on a saturday again! Long time since i've my sat so free and easy instead of being buried under my books. Felt so good. But, i kinda felt guilty for not even having a glance on my books. I know they mizz me. Tehehe. Shall touch em' tml. Lol, sounds so sick.. hmm

Had amath tuition in the morning, bussed down to j8 and back to shuana bro's place. Hung around for quite awhile and left tgt to fep. Met canny oink tgt. Off to cine, called chrisassass and he called me stupid cos i got my locations mixed up. Been a long time since i met them both, missed them ttm. Shuana left w her friends after that. So canny and i roamed around at cine since it was raining. Found my stuff! :> Got canny her gift too, hope you liked it alrightie! Hehe.

2010-03-11T18:30:00.002+12:00

When forever isn't enough

Hai mai lil cutie bunnies :) I realised that i've rotted this whole week away. Hmm.. I suck. I've still got like 2 zuo wen's to do and i can't be bothered ;( Teehee, flower did one for me alr :) so in exchange i drew a damn cute letter for him. Right billy, danny, danial, shengping, joshua.....?^^ Hehehe, rather pleased with it. Danny calls it the.. 'Bhb letter' cos i wrote 'i know you love me' and 'From the love of your life' hahahaha fking funny. Everyone who read my letter laughed ok! And they liked my cute drawingsz :)

Awww, i'mz hungwie. Didn't realise that tml's last day of term 1 and it'd be term break till kristlyn bby told me! She says i'm too engrossed in my books :( rawr, i'm not. And omg, any comb science (phy/chem) tuition tchers to recommend? My bloody chem pulled my science marks into the deepdeep ocean :(

My lovely oink's birthday's coming. Teehee, me so excited! :) Haven't seen you for so long you know!! mizz eu ttm. Plz send me the details asap so i can respond asap too oinky! *heartshape.

Pictures below are from ytd's play @ the national library. To Kill A Mockingbird:

When old wounds tear apart again.

2010-03-09T17:15:00.000+12:00

Never say you love me, unless you really mean it

Talking to flower boon now. hahahaha, i just threw one chinese compo to him this afternoon! ^^ So happyyyy hehehe. cos i've like 3 to complete cos i never handed in any since beginning of the year. Z z z, but hehe now i'm left with 2! I wanna throw another compo at another person! Who's willing? :( Boohoo.

School's been fine. But my eyes decided to be a bitch to me ytd. Think my contacts really got problem. HAOOOOO? :( Humph, it hurt through the night so i couldn't concentrate on doing anything. Slept at 8 hehehe. I've been sleeping really early on random days recently. Oh. I failed chemistry, like wtfwtfwtf. I dont get itttttt!!! _l_ Got back ss today, just passed. phewphewphew, hehehe. I fking hate essay writing for ss, next term ho sey alr. Getting back literature paper tml, first period! Arghhhhh. As for eng.. idk when am i gonna ever get it back~ Ok. Enough of this. I wanted to nappppp! But craig asked me to update. Ok shall let out a big YAWN :) tuition at 7 tonight. Shall wash fatties's cages after that. And see what time would it be by then and i'd see what i can do... maybe i'd be sleep straight awayzz. I woke up at 5am today!

Hehe ok byebyebyebyebye cuties ^o^v

2010-03-06T16:27:00.000+12:00

"baby!! omg sorry was busy studying, damn tiring. ): hope you've been real fine kkkk. dont really like knowing that you're upset over anything. scary things happened to me, my fb, fs, msn everything gone cause of that, so yea thats why maybe you thought i mia-ed from the cyber world. but i wouldnt wanna mia from you rightz!! love you hardcore kkkk my baby! ^^ missed you so much. if possible me wanna meet you during the march holidays! ): dk you free notz?! haha. just hope that you've been real fine. cause i know that you're a responsible person so you definitely know what you're doing, dont have to worry much for my big girl. ^^
ILOVEBABY^^" - Vanessa wee

OMGOMGOMG VANBB!:(:(:( Its been so long since i heard from you!:(:( Scary things? What happened! And your blog's gone too. I miss you bb ;( idk if i'd be free during the march hols man, butbut i'd try to meet you when i'm free oki? Omggggg when kristlyn told me that you've got a message for me i was fking excited. When was the last time we contacted! Haha, i'd text you up real soon babe. I'm better alot alr, i hope you're feeling better too my dear!! I love + miss you really much too! Hehe omg, Hugggggggzzzz!!!!!! :*

Thanks babyk for helping van to pass this message to me!! Hehe happy gurl :) Both you two take care ok! My two lovely gurl. Muackiez to you two :-*

2010-03-06T15:16:00.001+12:00

So much for pretending

I'm so tired and i can feel the heat biting into my skinnnn :(

I feel weird. Im tired yet not tired. Walao, i think my brain burnt alr. Do you know when i was getting back my papers i fking bit myself and it left a scar for 2 days or so. Zzz, stress ttm. Anw... Haven't it been a long time since i posted my current face in my blog! Hehehe. I was really bored so i played with the webcam. Lol as usual. Haha but i know i look like a damn ball but idc ok!!! Well.. should i catch some sleep? Whoaaaaa, saturday's passing so quickly! Why uh?

Btw, my phone's being rather anti social. It deleted all my unread messages. Just nice when i got spammed while i was having tuition. Damn. Well, my tuition teacher said that if i practiced my maths i would have gotten my a1, but i was cos i didnt practice em'. Thinking about it, damnit. I realised i never practiced maths only when i went for tuition. Tskkkk, i should be more hardworkinggggg! Why am so lazy! :(

2010-03-06T00:19:00.001+12:00

I can't believe that i still want you, after all that we've been through

Oh damnit, did i mention in my previous post that my desktop went back for operation cos i couldn't tahan the colours and everything? hehe luv you papi.

Anw, my life's improving, slowly? i hope. Haha. Ate less then half of my dinner. I feel hungry now, but the thought of food makes me wanna puke. Ewwwwww, idkw. Anw, im so sad! Why cant the emoticons be seen! :( Rawh. Amaths tuition tml!! I should get my school bag this weekend shouldn't i? well, letz see.. hmm.

Kristlyn told me that someone ripped some stuff off my blog huh! At least change the picture that i posted out rightttt, i took time to choose the proper website and picture seperately you know! :( Ok, nevermind. But that post was specially meant for babyk. Oh welllll.

Okokokok i should sleep soon. Shall catch up on either my sciences or double maths this weekend. Time's running out, damn. Worst that's everyone's working so hard!! Arghhhhh, I sound like a nerd, hi 8-)

At last my darn flower text me, zz. Stupid idiot asshole. Ok, did i mention that butches are so cute!!! Hehehe. Guys are assholes. Ok, not all but mostly. Lieslieslies. Hehehe i got over em'. Hi handsome girls and pretty boys (K)(K)(K)(L)(L)(L).

2010-03-05T21:58:00.000+12:00

Yesterday at this time I was deep asleep already, I'm so freaking tired now 

Got back a few of my common tests results already. But I'm not really contented with them cos I know that I could have done way better. The papers were easier then expected.. Can't rely on my school only. I gotta work harder! Next exam's round the corner already. Gotta mug hard during this term break!  Got b4 for chinese and laughed my ass off cos I passed that darn subject  Amaths was horrible! I got only b3, was damn sad. Emaths was alright a1 but I don't trust my school's standard, like seriously. Physics a1 too, but suck luhs. That paper was chicken feet, yet I got so low. So many scored full marks. Felt like a damn loser. Argh I need to improve so much 

Weird but it's past 9 and yet I'm not feeling hungry at all. Gotta go back home for dinner since my sister bought it already. Gawwd I feel like puking  desktop is having operation now so I'm using daddy's iPhone to blog. I'm so freaking tired!! Can't wait to dig my contacts out later. Haha I can't stand it but the emoticons here are so adorable!

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Hahahahaha omg they're so adorable and there's so many more! I know I'm kuku but I don't care  yayyyy I'm going home now. Toodles 

2010-03-03T20:27:00.000+12:00

5 Keys To A Successful Relationship

Having a successful relationship takes work from both partners. Great relationships don’t always come easy. If you find the right partner, that’s half the battle. But, no matter how long you’re with that person, you have to continuously work on your relationship and try to find ways you can improve it. The following are 5 keys to a successful relationship.

Communication- I can’t stress the importance of communication enough. If you aren’t able to open up and talk about things, than you don’t have a solid relationship. When people have things on their mind and let them go without discussing it, it usually manifests itself elsewhere.

For example if something your partner said hurt your feelings and you don’t talk about it, you might find yourself getting annoyed at everything they do. You may start nitpicking at them. In reality it’s not those little things bothering you but what they said that hurt your feelings.

Without communication, many of us hold a grudge. Holding a grudge is definitely not productive for a relationship. One important rule about communications is to talk in a respectful manner. Just spewing out whatever is on your mind in any tone of voice is not communication. Talking is great but if you don’t do it with respect, it’s pointless. Also remember to not only talk about things but to be a good listener too.

Honesty- Being honest and not lying is crucial to a good relationship. Even “white lies” are not healthy for a good relationship.

Trust-If you can’t trust your partner, than there’s a problem. You know you’re in a good relationship when you don’t worry about your partner cheating on you. Those thought aren’t on your mind at all. You never worry when your partner is working late. If you find that you’re becoming suspicious of your partner, than that’s not a good sign.

Respect- A healthy relationship has a key element of mutual respect for one another. Its okay to disagree but you must respect each others opinions and differences.

Dependability- It is important to have dependability in a relationship. Having a partner that is dependable and reliable will give you a great sense of security within the relationship. When times are tough and you hit rocky patches in your life it is important to know that somebody will be there for you.

http://www.datingtrek.com/keys-to-successful-relationships.php

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1.See your practitioner before becoming pregnant.

2.Start changing your food habits to include a healthy variety of foods.

3.Exercise! Starting now will help you stay in shape during pregnancy, can lower your risk of miscarriage, and has been proven to help reduce labor complications and length.

4.Educate yourself!

5.Eat a new vegetable you've never tried.

6.Check out a book on pregnancy.

7.Figure out what to do about chemical birth control, like the birth control pill.

8.Stop smoking. There are many programs to help you.

9.Take a prenatal vitamin. They can be prescribed by your practitioner or you can buy them over the counter. Ensure it contains 0.4 mg of folic acid.

10.Ask your partner to join you on your new healthy habit changes.

11.Track your cycles. Learning what you can about your cycles will help determine when you ovulate and when you conceived. These make for more accurate due dates.

12.If you need a new practitioner, interview before you become pregnant.

13.Ask your friends about pregnancy and parenthood.

14.Avoid chemicals that could possibly harm your baby. You can find these at work, in your home, and just about anywhere, be environmentally sensitive.

15.See your dentist before you get pregnant and brush your teeth daily.

16.Tell any medical professional that you may be pregnant if you are trying to get pregnant. This can prevent exposure to harmful tests and chemicals if you are pregnant and don't know it yet.

17.Stop changing cat litter.

18.Remember, it can take up to a year to become pregnant. If you have been actively trying for a year or more than six months if you are over 35, see your practitioner.

19.Act pregnant. This includes not drinking alcohol, even while trying to conceive. There is no known safe level during pregnancy and alcohol can cause birth defects.

20.Announce your pregnancy when you are ready.

21.Talk to your parents, what do you want to take from their experiences? How do you want to be different?

22.Rest when you can. Nap!

23.Start a journal or a pregnancy blog.

24.Use non-medicinal remedies for problems like nausea, heartburn, and constipation.

25.Drink six - eight eight ounce glasses of water a day.

26.Read yet another book!

27.Join a prenatal yoga or exercise class.

28.Keep your prenatal appointments with your midwife or doctor. This will help ensure that if you have any problems that they are caught early and kept to a minimum.

29.Take an early pregnancy class.

30.Remember to add 300 - 500 calories a day while pregnant.

31.Tour your selection of birth facilities before making a choice if you are not having a home birth.

32.Review the signs of premature labor and warnings signs for when to call your practitioner.

33.Talk to local doulas and start interviewing. Doulas can help you have a shorter, safer and more satisfying birth.

34.Keep a food diary to ensure that you are keeping up with your daily requirements.

35.If you are decorating your house or a nursery remember to avoid fumes often associated with paint and wall paper. Perhaps have friends do the heavy work while you help make snacks for them. Keep the windows open!

36.Baby sit a friend's baby and learn a bit about caring for a newborn.

37.Take a childbirth class. Sign up early to ensure you get the class and dates that you want.

38.Swimming is great in late pregnancy. It can help relieve a lot of aches and pains and makes you feel weightless.

39.Take a breastfeeding class to help prepare you for the realities of breastfeeding.

40.Stretch before bed to help prevent leg cramps.

41.Continue to exercise, even if you have to slow down. This will help you recover more quickly.

42.Write a birth plan. Something to help you clarify what you want or need for your birth experience. Share this with your practitioners and those you have invited to your birth.

43.Have film and cameras ready!

44.Practice relaxation whenever you can. Try for at least once a day.

45.Do pelvic tilts to help with late pregnancy back pain. It will help relieve your pain and even encourage the baby to assume a good birth position.

46.Pack your bags if you are going to a birth center or hospital. Don't forget your insurance cards, pre-registration forms, camera, birth plan, etc.

47.Review the signs of labor and warning signs.

48.Take a picture of yourself before the baby comes!

49.Read birth stories.

50.Kiss the baby!

http://pregnancy.about.com/cs/preconceptionalhe/a/50tips.htm

Kristlyn baby! This post is dedicated to you alright. Better read it all up ok! Healthy for you :) Anw, love you loads my dear girl! Have a healthy baby that's as cute as you too. (K)

2010-03-02T20:03:00.000+12:00

What i had for you was love, what you had for me was lies

I am so fucking against gamblers. Bth, why so many people gamber here there.

Anw!!!! Yessssss, no more common tests for anymore term 1's in my life! Hmm, but kinda saddening at the same time cos i realise i'm growing older. Darn. School ended really early today, at 9!! :) Hehehe. Went off to j8 and the stalls weren't even open yet! So, ziyi and i sat at food junction and waited for pop to open. Got our stuffs and started chionging project. there's still fking alot undone, and now my scanner's not working! How lucky am i! :( Sighsighsigh. Dued tml and we've so much shit still undone. Fk it, i mean fk it.

2010-02-28T19:25:00.000+12:00

When everything comes to an end

Omf, whats wrong with my brain. It aint functioning well, darn darn darnnnnn. I've not been studying wholeheartedly. Fuck, i realised i've put in less then 5o percent into my revision. Omg. 2 papers tml. Wish me luh. hehehe, bye.

I realised that i've forgotten how to love.

2010-02-26T23:28:00.001+12:00

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

2010-02-26T13:48:00.000+12:00

Soul meets soul on lovers’ lips

I used to blog so often, almost everyday. Thinking back, i would even blog about the lamest things. Now i think back on how easily i fell for love, i was silly. Though, my love was true. But whats the point of falling in love when i see so many girls having their hearts broken by their boyfriends? Don't fight for a love that isn't worth the fight. You never know when you're gonna find a better love. So why, why are you clinging on to your past. Let go, it isn't worth it.

Like at lasttttt, the weekends are here. This week was hardcore i tell you. I spent everyday mugging like crazy. Idk why, its only common tests but yet i can feel the pressure pushing me to study study studyyyy. Common tests started ytd, english and assass. I can never predict my scores for this 2 subjects, ever. Oh well, i hope that i've made improvements on both.. As for today, had physics/chemistry and chinese. Should be able to pass science, i swear i became a siaozhaboh cos i studied science like mad. As for chinese i didn't give a shit so.. i doubt i'd pass hiahia. Y'know, i don't have the mood to reply messages, unless i think you're cute, hehe. So don't text me for nothing. Cute people, you know i'm refering to you guyz :)

Would chiong amaths tml and read that darn mocking bird book. Yawnz. And chiong emaths on monday. Hehehe, today's the day to relaxxxxx and sleep early! ^^V

2010-02-26T12:08:00.000+12:00

You're not alone

I'm like totally in love with this short clip, i mean look at it! Creative ttm. Omgz, i like i like :)

2010-02-22T19:03:00.000+12:00

Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs

Ahhhh omg fuck it, fuck it so badly. Lol, fuck this morning's assembly. Now i've a fucking new nickname. I ARE SAD GURLX. Okayokayokay, i wish i had more time this year. Seriously my days pass too quickly. Seems like i've only 5 hours a day :/ Anyway, school ended @ 240 today. Yayness, like at last. But there wasn't dnt :( I thought i could continue chionging it, oh well... Hmm. Met jayjay the fatbear after school. Damnit luhz, need to do loadddz of workie! Ok, bye humanzxs! :>

2010-02-20T22:07:00.000+12:00

Can you feel the love tonight

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…

“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”
“Why? You need to study at home?” I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”

He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all. He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days… Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why…

Then one day…

Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room, one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…

Jin: Here…take this…
Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.Then I shouted… “Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb… and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily… How could he…. I felt that… Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street… with another girl… He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll… I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell… Why did he gave these to me… Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it. Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll. Then…

Honk~ Honk~
With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted… But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!” HONK~!! “Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me.
After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person… I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…

“One…two… three…” That was how… I started to count the dolls…
“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…” It all ended with 485 dolls.
I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…

“I love you~, I love you~” I dropped the dolls,shocked.

“I….lo..ve…you??” I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

“I love you~ I love you~” It can’t be! I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you… Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much… I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…

“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…

For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life.

http://www.lovefatedestiny.com/

Such love do exist. But not everyone gets a taste of it.

2010-02-20T14:23:00.000+12:00

I feel your whisper across the sea

Just drillled myself with amaths. Swear my brain juice's dryin' up. I'd post more pix the next time i blog. Baibaibai. I shall go drink that bull nao. AND IM FEELING HUNGRY. DAMNIT.

2010-02-20T00:26:00.003+12:00

Tonight's gonna be a good night

Hehehe, yesterday was greatttttt. I just had to blog again. I don't feel so much of a loser hehe. Well, i'm gonna become a winner one day, slowly. Well i don't need to win win but not stay a loser like how i've been. Jia you jia you! :) Webby with jayjay just now. Laughed so fucking much, great fat bear. This year's my 4th year knowin' you! Har har har. Our fb so coolz.

Okaye. Damnit cos i spammed my camera with bombzx of my faces cos i was damn bored while being home alone waiting for everyone to be back~ So i took pictures with the roses papa bought for mommy. Roses are really pwettie stuff (F)

Oh maiiiiii, tuition @ 11. Better get some rest. I BOUGHT RED BULL THIS EVENING TO KEEP MYSELF AWAKE WHILE STUDYING FOR TMR! I'm showing effort ok ;)

2010-02-19T15:27:00.002+12:00

Cupid

Yay, its friday at last. I need more sleep! School today was great. Had chemistry test, more or less i was prepared cos i studied ytd evening.. lessons were the same, nothing special. But reccess was fucking funny. Wo joked so much and laughed all tgt. Maybe our laughters were so contagious that the guys beside us were laughing too. Ok, lame -_- Finishing mocking bird for lit soon and talked cock in chinese with billy ry and danny. Went home by condo bus cos mommy isn't free this afternoon. Oh yes my school bag's spoiling, but i dont feel like buying a new one. All the bags now so $%^&)! one. Fugly. Okkkeh, i saw reb's blog and suddenly rmbed.

CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT WE FAILED OUR 2.4 RUN AGN?! Lol, fuck it. I know you can believe. But we fucking run lo. Stupid timer must have been spoilt. Currently waiting for my mom to buy my fish burger home, ballet tonight. Why do i feel so lazyyyyy!!!! Common test's next week. Argh. Why's this year passing so fucking fast. HELLO I THOUGHT 2010 JUST STARTED ONLY?! WHY FEBRUARY GONNA END SO SOON.'round half a year left before prelims and soon o's and before i know it its all gona be over. Omgwtf, someone pleaseeeeeeeee create a darn time machine asap!? :( Sigh. Ok nvrm, i should stop kping. Shall do my best and study hard and and and.... i'll move on. Walaoz, wei shen me i feel so hung-zi alr, poor tummy.

I've been bloghopping over to my friends blogs. Why so many people gambling! So fun meh~ Yawnz. I realised, many are heartbroken. We change believe into beLIEve. Trust is such a strong word. Lose this trust one, and it'd take you alot to gain that trust back again or never. Why can't guys just stay faithful. WHY.

会哭的男人, 才是真心的. Don't you agree? (Y)
from jieyong's fb. I believe he's a few in millions, a faithful guy.

2010-02-15T22:11:00.003+12:00

Reunion dinner @ my home on saturday:

Chinese New Year:

At least this year's cny is wayyyyy better then last year's! I remebered how boring it was as my relatives were flying everywhere. So there wasn't much of a reunion. Well, but this year everyone's back ^^v Bet everyone's collecting lotz of angpows huh. Lol, i tell you i can use my fingers to count how many i recieved uh -_- I've so few relatives in singapore. Rest in msia, but! I can live without those cash, hahaha i rather don't recieve their angpows then to go back there and rot x.x I realised... my face looks rounder and i look like a kiddy. Boohoo! :( Nevermind luh, kiddy better then chaolao hor shermaine, horrrrrrr?^^

Walao eh, my darl baby1 come hold one majong session at her place tml. Fuck it cos i can't go over ( though i know shit about majong HAHAHA, not like i'd play~ ), i booked tml with my reunion with the damn bookz. Lol. Nvrmnvrmnvrm. Brainwash myself, *i'm gonna have so much fun next year :D:D:D:D* Ok, i feeel better already. Eheheheh, my whole clique should go on diet tgt since we all think we're growing chubbier. hehehe, except charl. We shall watch her eat, and not let her diet. Winks*

2010-02-14T17:58:00.006+12:00

You'll be the fool when the truth comes out

Okkkkk, as for ytd.. i got really bored while waiting for my relatives to come for steamboat so i camwhored myself. Hmm.. haven't done this for such a long time, hahaha. And yessss, long time since i've posted coloured pictures! I think b/w's nicer though, more defined. Hehehe. (Lol, i decided to not post so many pictures, rest @ my facebook) Ok, this year's cny's sosososo boring. Yawnz, i slept my whole afternoon away. Woke up in the morning to realise my inbox spammed with Valentine's/Cny's wishes. Ohohoh, my sister brought her boyfriend home at lastttt. Not bad, not bad hahaha aka meowwwww ^^v.

Anw. Got my music working! Hehe, at last, i are happy gurlllie :>

Happy Valentine's Day;

Blessed Chinese New Year

2010-02-13T23:15:00.002+12:00

As stars lean down to kiss you, i lie awake and miss you

My head hurts so badly now. I'm thinking too deep.

Well, today's reunion dinner wasn't that bad. Relatives came over for steamboat. Stuffed myself with foodfoodfood. No i mean soup. Hehehe. Ok. Why do i sound so happy. Walao, my head gonna crack already zz. Valentine's day and Chinese new year altogether tml, how much more boring can it get! Worst still, i needa wake up early tml. Zzz zzz zzz i'm tired.

I'm missing something/someone, but i just don't know what/who is it.

2010-02-12T22:30:00.002+12:00

I Never Told You, Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

2010-02-12T22:14:00.002+12:00

I never told you

i haven't been loading pix from my camera for really long. Oh well, i'm a oinkoink. Can't blame a oinkoink can you! Sigh, idk why sometimes i have this urge to delete everything from my blog, my old posts and stuff. but, i can't bare to do so, idk why either. I've updated my blog with music at last, but idk why it ain't playing. Gotta change my website for my playlist soon i guess? Always having problemz. Well i really like my new songs though, all bout lovelovelove~.

School today was rather boringz. Tried dragging Rebby out of bed but she said that her sleep was much more impt and charl woke up late. Oh wellz. So only sherm val and i went to school today. But they both had lion dance once recess was over :( So poor furball went to find her other schoolmateys. Went for the celebration with joshua and clique. Hehehe, had fun whacking my old flower. I screwed ballet today, idk why too. Reunion dinner tml. I realised i don't fancy such occasions anymore. Guess 14 years of it was enough, i'm so bored with life~ Ok, i should stop this shit. I shall study, hehehe. Bye! :)

Valentine's day, 14 feb. Eat my dung.

2010-02-11T18:45:00.001+12:00

Take time to realise

I MET OINKOINK TODAY (LLLLLLLL) when was the last time i met you? ;) I missed you ^^ Hehe. Alrighty, school's been pretty fine. I haven't felt lethagic for quite awhile. I pay attention in every subjects, exp chinese~~~ Life's been pretty well i guess. Word hard now, x9876543210 of good life in future. I don't mind to exchange my teen life for such a good deal :) And, i shall go to school tml, its the last cny i'd have in my secondary school life. Meeting precious after tt at ats. I hope more peepz would go back too.

Anw, gonna clear my mess in my room tonight and maybe if i've some time left i'd mug a lil. Idk why. But i feel guilty when i don't do my own revision for a day. I think i'm turning nerd 8) Die alr, hahaha. I'm catching up with science too, like after 3 years of hearing and not listening in lessons zzz. And i wanna do better for both maths, i need to aim high and start planning. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. SO I SHOULD BLOODY HELL START PLANNING MY TIMETABLE. Ok, this post is so.... hmm.. idk how to say. Oh well. Time i brush up on my english, i need more vocabz. Kkkk, shall go bathe now.

Sigh, thiz year's sucha buzy year! :( I just rmbed i still needa chiong my cca to get my (-2). Argh. I should dye my hair black. In case my hair turns white~ Hahahaha. Dung. Oh yes, i almost forgotten...

I FUCKING FAILED MY NAFA 2.4 RUN.
I'M TURNING INTO A PIG ALR LUH.

2010-02-07T15:39:00.002+12:00

But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone

(ytd's pictures.)

Ok, idc if i see many people's life being so happening now while mine's like a piece of dung. Cos i know that my life's gonna change when all these lil dungs are over. Well, there are many obstacles in life aren't there. I'm just a lil too unlucky to be overwhelmed with so many at one go. But doesn't mean i'd get a sweeter/better/longer good time? Well, i really hope so.

2010-02-05T22:06:00.001+12:00

I was bloghoppin' for awhile, okok i know its lifeless to do so. But since i'm surfin' the net, i'd just waste some time of my life bloghoppin'.

Been having horrible eyes these few days. Red red bloody red, sighz. Okay but to my topic of posting. i find it kinda ironic when people post saying that they'd change for the better, pay attention in class and etc. Ok i know i do that too, but i'm really workin' on it. I've enough of being a loser in life, for 15 over years. I'm sick of losing out. I want to at least achieve something in life.

2010-02-01T18:29:00.001+12:00

Liar, fucking liar.
WHY DO I HAVE SUCH A FUCKING SAD LIFE.
Lets just end it here.... ha, i've no guts to do so.
Sighhhhhh. Shall start work at 7.
I should stop procastinating.
BUT I'VE NO MOOD FOR ANYTHING.
Ha ha ha, i'd delete all my posts soon. They're all talking cock.
I need a wall. I wanna smash into it and die.
DIE HARD. Oh wellllz.

2010-01-31T13:44:00.001+12:00

Touched by an angel

I wish i could take a long napppppp and not wake till life gets better.

My com's not really working properly. Some colour problem. So i changed all the pictures to b/w, cos i couldn't stand the sight of the overwheming strong colours. Oh well. Life haven't been getting better. I h8888 school now. Im annoyed by the sight of you. Well continue picking on me. I can't be bothered alr. School's school. Can't wait to fuck off from wss. Though i've many great memories thr, i'm sure i'd have better ones in future. and, my memories were way better before you screwed it up. you knnbpcb zzzzzZZZZ. I'm so sick of life. FARK.

My life haven't been interesting. No point reading my blog anymoree. I don't update often too. oh wellz. shall take away the guestbook. Eye sore only.

I should just study hard and get on with life. Har har har. Now have fun also no fun. i feel so fucking no life. Oh wellz. Wouldn't be active much in my cyber life till i feel like coming back. Ohohoh~~~ Balling lyfez. My diary's so alive. I've so much to share with her. Oh weelllz. Spent 2010 being a useless shit. O's o's o's.....

_l_

2010-01-24T21:39:00.003+12:00

Love of my life

Yessss, at last. Proper pictures to update with from satz.

Wellwellwell i haven't posted for quite awhile. Well you can't expect me to update everyday anymore till nov 10. Siao uh kcuf. Oinkz. My days have been great recently! Been a really happy girl. School, well okok i guess. I've been screwing science yessssss i know. Chinese haven't been any better. A/emaths are fine, thankz to tuition if not i'd srsly not know wtf is wang talking about. English.. i've been putting in effort! I hate humanities to the core still. Mocking bird bores my ass and its rather obvious that my ss teacher gave up on me alr. Still say no hope. Damn discouraging. As for dnt, i think i can even dream of that subject. hehehe such a sweet dream :> Oinkz. I really hope i'd score for that. I'm really puttin' in alot i mean ALOT of effort in that. And i'd get a cca soon, think i'd join ng's dnt club. I got to. After what brother told me, i'm worrying like dung.

Oh yes, my weekends got my hyped up thanks to my dear bro and kevin and many more friends. Haha! met bro on sat to study, but a little bit fail luhs, cos we took awhile to settle down. But was great after that. She taught me chem. Steady sia that woman. Whereas for kevin, poinkzx only right! :> Haha. Fucking funneh. Haven't talk for ages and caught up cos of the 'berri kute boi' Hahaha only bro and him knows who. Shhhh~ Lol, i should like i'm crushing that dude. haha funny only! And i can't believe that kevin studies so lil. I R BERRI JEALOUS. How can someone still be so smart despite studying so lil?:( Hahaha anw, i'm glad that my phone's crazily alive again! Hahaha imma happy oinkz.

I just realised how quickly january had went away... thats bad, VERY.

2010-01-20T16:55:00.000+12:00

The last time

OINK. I NEED TO RUSH D&T WORK NOW. BUT I CANT PRINT OUT IMAGES. FMLFMLFML. Okeh, shermaine just told me that there's more 2 do. I was sleepy for the whole of today, oinky. I think i was rather quiet in class today hehehe. Ok enuff nonsense. Anw, desktoppy might be coming home tml! Yayzxs. I hope i would get to see my stuff still save inside my folders! :/ Okokokok. Bye pigs! :>

2010-01-18T20:59:00.001+12:00

White Lies

Omgz hai people. I told you i'd update. Had been updating facebook and twitter. And i realised i can update whatever i want to next time during chinese lessons with billybongbong's phone. Yaynessz. How's life? Hm. Suckx without my bby desktop. Oh wellz. And my phone's been outta business these days. Sad gurl with sad lyfe. Oinkoink. School was pretty fine today. Laughed alot with my bitches, mwackmwack. Lurbx them ttmaxi. I just realised how uncomfortable it is to blog lying on the bed. Oink. My back hurtsz. I r old. Currently doing dnt, any great ideas? Sighz. Should do some maths soon. I've been slacking far too much. Imma big fat disappointment. And my class grew bigger today, again. 45 students, wow notz! I realised how annoyed i can be against humans, hmm. I mizz blathor, awwwww. Sad gurlie. :( I know i'm leading a boring life naoz, hush nao bby hush~ Gonna watch chnnl 8 at 9! Which is really soon. H3h3, stupid story line but i just wanna know whats going on in that cheena drama. Oh well, life's like that. I shall study tml. I SHOULD SO FUCKING DO SO. Oror, maybe i should stay back. Hmmmm. Letz all be the next sean y0zxsbvcszxs. \m/

2010-01-15T23:11:00.002+12:00

When the last teardrop falls

Oink. School was short today. After a long tiring week.... at last~ Oh well. I'm listening to some playlist now. So many nice old songs, i likeyz! ^^ I realised my music can't be played in my blog. Unfairz. I R SAD.

Ballet today was awesomez, we had pointe after our long breakkkkk. And guess what. I had fucking toe crampz, on both my left and right foot, ow ok! But it got better after i continued dancing. Well, not a great dancer so don't ask how well i dance. Oh well, my commy's gonna be in hospital for awhile, i hope it wouldn't be too long though. Well, and pray hard that i won't fucking lost anymore pictures. Loosing my sec1 and 2 ones are bad enuff. I really hope i won't loose them.. so much memories held in there :( Sigh. Alrightie. Maybe i'd steal my sist's lappy to go online or sth, or maybe i'd just fuck off to study. Tuition tml, i shall clear the new mess in my pea brain. Argh. Oh yes, I've a fucking big problem with 'staring'. *Rolls eyes~

Go on flirting, bye! :)

2010-01-14T19:51:00.000+12:00

Srsly, i don't get it. You guys call yourselves 'gangsters' yet fucking talk behind our backs? Grow some fucking ballz if you're a gentleman. Or maybe, your balls haven't grown out of you. Cb motherfucker. Think about the girls that mix with you guys, i think they are way more slutty then we are. And our studies and way better then them too. Please fucking reflect about wtf you've said, or at least, take a look at the mirror of yourselves. Knn.

2010-01-14T18:56:00.002+12:00

Forever does come to an end

My bestest friend in the whole wide world. Love you furryhong (L) Talking to yiyi naoz, hahaha new name 4 lover. Laughs. Lubz her. H3h3h3, okay. I'm bored. Btw, school was great today. But i hated pe. Fucking change back to yap, bias. Went for lunch with furry+val+baby1. Alrightz, Gonna eat dinnz now. And i'd then shower and off i'd be to some work :>

I feel the walls between us.

I see our souls drifting, further and further....

2010-01-13T19:14:00.001+12:00

And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine

Okay, ng tou pai me on the trip at the musuem on monday. Ho-li-ji-ble. But nevermind, since i've no new pix to share, look at me and shermaine's cockface. HAHAHA. Ok, laugh all you want~ ^^ I look constipated, oh well. Haha!

Lessons lessons~ I am dead tired. During maths lesson this afternoon, shermaine and i were like 'when was the last time we slept in class?' haha good question. For as far as i can remember.. i think it was monthz ago. English, i'm the damn representive in class, can't sleep. Chinese, i can't mizz out the fun from those cocky guys behind and beside me. (Bite me bite me, i are cutie cupcake~HAHAHA) Maths/Amaths, I don't wanna sleept during her period, i study myself. Physics+Chem, I can't waste time sleeping~ Ss/Lit, I don't know why. But i can't sleep and nothing gets into my brain >: Dnt, How to sleep! So much to do! I'mz a bz gurl. I've gotta feelin' that this year's gonna fly by me. Sheeeetz. Anw, school ended at 320+ today.

Alright ppl, time i go shower and study some shit into my brain. My eyes feel so dry :( And the weather so shiock, make me wanna sleep. Awman. Shall finish my planning for dnt, do some eng/read compo(?), read chemz. Go gracey poop! ^o^

2010-01-11T19:52:00.001+12:00

I loved you wholeheartly.

How was school today? Hm. Well, i got a sticker on my english compo planning HAHAHA. Happy gurl, got praised fr the cycle thingy. ^^ And she chose me as english rap. HAHAHA WTF. Now i have to be extremely caution on my english assignments. Well, its a stepping stone anw. Hiahia. As for chinese.. the fucking teacher kept calling my name cos i didn't do my work. Fuck it, hello? We're from the losers in chinese team here~~ Okay fine, I'd TRY doing my chinese compre l8tr. Well, i really haven't got much time left. Actually, i'm really anxious alr. I mean, i can dream of my o levels alr, how bad can this be. Saw my seniors taking back their results today. Their marks weren't exactly great, but some did pretty well. But on average... idk i'm just fucking worried for myself. I need to do well. I must get into TDS. Urgh, and i'm still wasting time on this shit blog. Alrighttttttttt~ So ironic.

Ng brought us to the red dot musuem after school. I expected something way much more interesting from that musuem. Well, i was somewhat disappointed. Their designs were rather limited. Oh well... Anw, we recieved the theme for dnt o's alr! It's selection. Sigh, its such a tough theme... i've been thinking about it since i knew about it. Howhow, my A1's gonna flyfly. Fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

2010-01-10T15:01:00.002+12:00

Falling for you over and over again

Out with brother ytd! Went to see ngee ann poly and temasek poly. Ngee ann totally don't suit me, hahaha stupid bro wanna do the vet course. Well it was kinda cool, but, i'm am so not a science person. Oh well too bad for me. And as we were too stupid to find our way to temesek poly from ngee ann, we took a cab all the way there. Rather long ride~ We did so many stupid things. And we took many pictures actually, but sad to say, they were all so unglam, so i shall keep all the pictures taken on that day for myself to laugh at. Hehehe. Bro accompanied me to the design school. Fucking chio. I am in love with TDS. I so fucking need to get into that school. Its a must. But it isn't gonna be easy! I'm to study really hard. Oh right, and i realised my batch of people who are taking o's tgt with me seem so fucking hardworking. They've been mugging since idk when, i feel so lag. I FEEL LOUSY SHITTY POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT~

Oh yes, before i forget to let you guys laugh at me.... i got so bored last night as i stared at the mirror.. i took a sissors and snipped off my fucking fringe. OMG WHY THE FUCK DID I DO THAT. WHY! I'm regretting so badly already. I've been barking since last night~ Oh well.... Its uneven too, wtf. Hahaha. Alright. Please, hurry grow back to normal T.T

2010-01-08T15:55:00.001+12:00

I wanna grow old with you

Hihihihiiiiiii humanx. Gotta go shower soon, before that, a short post! How was sch today, hmmmm. Well, rather good! I decided, i love my timetable's friday. But they just changed my darn timetable again. oh well... Today was lovely. Started off my lessons with my fav subject :> Carried on with pe, though i didn't participate in running, i'm glad that we're got that fun pe teacher, yayz. Shall start being sporty! Lol, bullshit. Well, recess with few humanz, so shiock, no Q. Maths lessons, i was shouting out the ans and when she asked for the reason, i shut up and said i forgot~ Chemistry had nth on cos thr wasn't time. Copyed notes for physics and finally, chinese lesson which was fucking fun. Not that the lesson was fun, but the group i sat with r o c k z. Fucking laughed throughout the 2 whole periods. And i drew pigs on the people surrounding me. But he washed it away, angryz. Had lunch with valerie and i've been home since then. Well, shall shower and i'd be off to ballet. Is it pointe or soft shoes today? Hmmm

2010-01-07T21:20:00.001+12:00

To hold you once more, to love you once more.

Well, school's been tiring me alot recently. Oinkxz, i am very deprived off my sleepz. Insomnia last night 4 idk what fuck. Yes, i have been making good use of my time, well expect for today... heh. But! I'd try revising something after i shower, maybe i should read up on my darn mockingbird, tweettweet~ Sigh just hold on for this few months, i'd get through it! Mommy tells me that its gonna be worth it. After that, i'd do more of what i wanna do. Go gfbkel! :>

School wasn't as tiring for today cos i didn't feel sleepy once lessons started. But i was filled with emotions today, i hate it. Anw, went down to nanyang poly after school with my school for their open house. Met wilson and friends tgt with shermne and val! His friends were humorous. Esp when they stuffed the long dangly balloon into his other friend's nose. Cute ttm! Trey and his stupid bike 'bomb' scared me, haha that haolian gui. Well well well, i guess i've not enoughime to study today, harhar fuck it. I wanna watch teevee. Sleep early, wake up early, go school happy, study happy, work happy. Yay happy gurl.

2010-01-04T19:53:00.000+12:00

First day of school in year 2010, how was yours? ;)

It started off really badly, hahaha. Shermaine and i were so happy thinking that sim had quitted being dm (thanks to some idiot who got it all wrongzxs) Hmmm. So we went down t the canteen as it was raining at the assembly area, and the next thing we knew, we bumped into sim. The damn fucking funny thing was that shermaine's and my first reaction was run. Ps* I didn't expect my adventure to start so quickly~. Hahaha. Well, she ran left i ran right. Hahaha and the next thing we knew, we lost each other. Rofl plzx. Well, the timetable's s c r e w e d. whats with the one periods, more like w a s t e o f t i m e. Ng had us till recess, and lessons resumed after that. Our maths teacher, idk who yet. didn't come so we had like 1 going 2 periods to get wild. harharhar. Till the last 5 minutes, wang came in and said that our teacher wasn't in school. Hmmm, my sch suxxxx right. hahaha. Rightttt, so we took many funny pictures. Oh yes, we had spot check. And guess what i got 'caught' for. Not skirt, not socks. But for my hair not be tied properly thanksz to shermaine as she pulled out my bun before the spot check. Hahaha. But he didn't catch me in the end harhar. Sucker. Only had one proper lesson today, which was physics. I swear it was hell cos i haven't sat in the lab to hear yeo talk so much for so longzx. gotta wake up and get used to it~. Y a w n z.

Walked to j8 2gt with clique after school! Had lunch 2gt, but val left to meet her friends(?) Yeap. And after one whole day of laughing so hard and shouting and screamings, i throat hurts. When was the last time i screamed like that. Hahaha. I think my throat's not used to it agn. Hope i'd be well by 2mr. And and, i should srsly get more sleep. I was so excited about school last night till i wasn't able to fall asleep. How cool~~~

Oh. I heard that this year's sec one's are totally annoying. Hm, are they? Tsk i haven't seen them.

P/S: Its a birthmark that's on my arm suckers.

2010-01-03T16:51:00.001+12:00

YAWNZXSCVS. TIRED PIECE OF SHIT.

I am so sheepy. Got shaked out of bed today, humph. I am laughing my ass off naoz becuz shermaine said that if i'm guai she'd let me shit on her face. Hehehe so exciting! :> Well.. school's reopening 2mr! I am dreading it, yet i'm feeling excited. Hahahaha, did i say that b4? Laughs, who cares. I feel so sad cos i wanted to get my hottie cakes from macs b4 going to school with clique but my shitface bitch don't wantz. She wants to get her wingz in the afternoon instead. And i agreed, unfaiiiiiiir! And i don't know what time are we gonna be dismissed, hmm... why do i have a bad feeling about it? :( Anyway, i really wonder how this year's sec 1's are gonna be. I hope they'd be a good batch of kids. I fucking hate it when they come in and act like this whole fucking school belongs to them and start stepping like a gangster~ Faints. Anw, tmr's gonna be the start of my adventure of running away of mr sim. HA HA HA. Please stop catching me, i'd do well for o's ^^ Hahahah wtf. I'm so tired of your detention classes. I've never been late for school before. I don't deserve time at your 'palace'. Awwwwww! Go catch those fucked up kids instead, srsly. They piss my fucking ass off.

Yay. See you my lovelies tml! Lets start working hard! :> Oh yes, did i tell you that i just got some fucking cheap school shoe? Hahaha. Fuck, its just for a few months, why bother ^^

2010-01-02T21:59:00.000+12:00

Well to summarise my second day of 2010.. it was rather boring. I slept, i used the computer, i napped, i ate, i watched the tv, i camwhored, i texted, i bathed, i breathed, etcetc... Oh yes, Ng cheated my feelings~ Wellwell, glad to know that he's gonna stay as out form teacher! But we'd be having a co-form teacher too. Are w that hard to handle? We're such great kids :(

My mom's be nagging my ass till it annoys me alot. A L O T. Fuck. I know i need to study okay. Just fucking let me live my life and study all the fuck i want AS I HAVE FUCKING WOKE UP ALR. Yay. School's gonna reopen on monday, happy happy girl. Well, i love my friends muacksz. I love to webcam hiahiahia. The weather's so hot~

2010-01-01T19:01:00.001+12:00

Hi motherfuckers!!!! Hahahaha.

Well i spent my new year's eve at church to countdown 4 the new year. I don't know why, but there was this weird feeling that kept making me want to cry. Hmm. As usual people started spamming my phone, from like 11pm. So i decided to be kiasu and sent my greetings to 30 contacts, are you the lucky one? :> Haha. Alrighttttt anyway, gonna spend my 2010 fruitfully. I'd start muggin' once school reopens. Gahhh, so many dates to attend but i fucking got to study. After o's? Hiahiahia. May all my friends forget me by then~. You know what, i've a bad feeling that there's ballet 2day and i forgot. Haha fuck myself. Yay school's gonna reopen. I can finally swim out of my cage and fuck my lovely bitches, muackmuacks! (K)

2009-12-31T18:16:00.003+12:00

Beginning of 2009:

Mid year:

Now:

Highlights for year 2009:

January: Had ballet practice for church every saturday. Went back to school, met up with my former classmates. Kaixin, jiajun, yingli, vanessa. Took my first step into 3e3. Hated my life in there, so many people i disliked were all in the same class as me. Got into our english bands. Celebrated chinese new year @ my grandma's place. Performed in chingay 2009.

Febuary: Started to make friends make my classmates. Slowly i fell in love with dnt hahahaha. What a boring month!

March: Baked alot during this month! Went krazy about having jet black hair. Though my hair was black already, i still went to dye my hair black. hmmmm. Started to buck up for amaths. Dreaded for 1st april to come, c a m p.

April: I came back being a awesomely happy bitch. Camp was damn good, i can't believe i meant that. Night walk was awesome, i think a ghost followed poh and i, hahaha cos the ghost laughed @ us -_-

May: I RAN DURING SPORTS DAY.Hahaha but its just some shit marathon.

June: June holidays, yay. Caught up with my primary school friends. Ate alot of durians! Till i got sore throat. Oh yes, i went krazy over Boyz over flowerz! 2e2 chalet, drank and some stuff happened zz. Damn lame.

July: Celebrated my 15th with kaixin, jiajun, vanessa, yingli, mingru and eileen. Weird but, whoever i've celebrated my birthday with have long drifted far away from me. But life goes on, though we're not close anymore, we're all still friend, right? I was the one who turned myself away from you guys @ first actually.. Spent most of my wednesday after school @ nyp doing some dnt course. Slowly shermaine bitch and i became friends and grew closer. We were once enimies, harhar!

August: Mc and i became best friends once again. (L) Celebrated valerie's birthday @ sentosa, which was the very first time shermaine+val+charlene and i went out 2gt. Rebecca didnt go for some stupid reason if im not wrong? haha.

September: A damn busy month. Every dnt student were like rushing to finish their work including me luhs hahaha. As usual. But i enjoyed my time in the dnt rubbish room, getting my hair all dirty with rubbish. Shermaine burnt her hair while i glued my hair. Oh yes, our clique got 2gt this month. The 5 of us disliked each other into a clique who has so much in common! I love my clique, really. Unexpected though haha.

October: Had EOYs for almost the whole month. Hectic i swear. Didn't really do well cos i think i really suck. Our clique celebrated charlene's birthday 2gt (L) After EOYs spent time with rebecca.

November: Had 3e3 class chalet, charlene and i got fucking high after drinking. We ran down the stairs and fell on top of each other, we went too krazy that we had to be pulled apart. I cried. LMFAO. Sent rebecca off to msia. I almost cried :( Went out went out went out. Either clique or just shermaine alone. Became a fool out of love too...

December: Went back to msia for 3 days. Got torn apart, cried my fucking eyeballz out over a guy who never loved me, harharhar. But i got to know who were my true friends who stayed by me and those who fuck me up just for me to wake up. Well guys, i've finally woken up. Had 2e2 class chalet again, was really great! Holiday @ taiwan with family, did much shopping! Going to church 2night to countdown for the new year. But i'm not really excited. I'm worried 4 next year to come by.. i'm afraid that i wouldn't make it. Well, but i'm really glad to say, I AM OVER WITH LOVE :)

2009 was a year that flew pass me so quickly in a blink of an eye. I can only recalling myself mugging for no reason and no mugging when there's a reason and crying for him. Hmm, i'd stop being a fool from now on. Next year's gonna be a better year, much more better. I'd study, i really will. And after o's, i've decided to take one step closer to God, i ned to do that, i've strayed away too much. I'm finding for a more suitable church, any friends out there? :) I want to lead a clean life, hahaha. I smell freedom of my life, expection from studying though tsktsk! Also, i hope that my clique would grow closer. I want us to all do well together, none to be left out. And mchong, i'm not forgetting you. Haha, we'd get closer then how we are now, though we're close alr, haha! I promise to spend more time with you when o's over alright! I've planned my life. I decided, i need God in my life. yay, wise decision! :> I had a fruitful year, i wanna thank everyone who had been part of my 2009, a great big thank you for making my year :)

Oh yes, before i go...
I wish everyone a blessed new year in advance!
Happy 2010! (K)

2009-12-30T15:32:00.000+12:00

Belated christmas celebration on the 28th @ my aunt's place.

Actually idk why, but i realise, i don't really fancy such celebrations much anymore. I don't feel the festive mood. Just dull dull dull. Hmm, i wonder what did i look forward so much during christmas when i was a kid. Presents? Hah. They don't excite me anymore. What's the true meaning of christmas? Jesus birth, christmas carols, presents, families.... hmmm. I hope to have a more exciting christmas next year!

Oh yes, i'd post my pix from taiwan asap! My sist's still compressing em'. She's sucha slow poke. I've only got pictures from day 1 and 2 so far! I'd blog when i have all of em'. Alright? Hahaha. You don't have a choice anw. Oh and i just realised that school's gonna reopen in less then a week. G r e a t t t. Shermaine, rmb what i wanted to do on the first day of school? Its all fucked up now. If you rmb hahaha. Anyway. I gotta get my A's back for Dnt and my double maths. Go gracey, lol. ew. And i still haven't got my new shirts and skirts altered. Harhar, the thought of getting caught by my dm on the first day of school, i won't be surprised -_-

Well. I'd buck up next year. I won't go out till my holidays come hahaha. But i think i'd grow fatter. Hmm, everyone's telling me that my face has become rounder. Shesh, i should eat lesser hahaha. Slap me, i gotta eat :> Heh.

I wish i could protect em'. I'd have a perfect family in future like how mine's like now. I will.

2009-12-30T13:28:00.000+12:00

House phone rings... i picked up.
Mom: What d'you wanna eat?
Me: Idk. MOMMY I WANT GRASS JELLY!!!!
Mom: Black or white?
Me: Isn't it black -.-
Mom: Then hw'bout the other 2?
Me: Bunny what d'you wanna eat?!
Bunny: I want no body nobody but chu!
Me: She wants to eat me -_-
Mom: Okay bye.
Me: Mommy mommy wait! Daddy haven't eat!
Mom: So?
Me: Buy food for him luh!
Mom: What does he want?
Me: DADDY WHAT'CHU WANNA EAT!
Dad: I don't wanna eat! Mommy say i fat!
Me: -.- WHAT D'YOU WANNA EAT.
Mom: Ask him wanna wait 4 me 2 come back and we'd go out tgt?
Me: Daddy want....?
Dad: I DON'T WANT! Mommy say i fat! >:

HAHAHA. What should i do. My family's crazy.

2009-12-21T21:14:00.000+12:00

Gracey's in taiwan naozx. There was like an earthquake 2 days ago. SHake here shake there. Fucking scary, i thought i'd die. Hmmmm. Hahaha. I almost cried while running down the stairs but who cares, i'm safe now! I think..... Hmm. Okay, i have many pix in my sist's dslr. I likey! :> Would take some time to upload so be patient with the pix yeah. Hehe. Shall be home on the 26th by evening, i think. Okay. Sad now. Bye. Btw, Merry advanced christmas! Bye.

2009-12-18T23:42:00.000+12:00

Here's one last post b4 i leave 4 taiwan while i'm still comfy @ homez. Currently webcamming with this bitch. See her pic all over~ Okok. Anyway, bitch..... I AM CURSING AND SWEARING @ YOU ALR !^(&)&!^!) DON'T DARE YOU BLACKMAIL MOI OKAY. IF NOT I BLACKMAIL YOU BACK 2! H3h3h3, this would really come in handy if we bitch fight one more fucking time, whoohooooo~ i hope we don't. Poor face of mine would be decomposed cos of what you took -_- Okay bye people! I still think that i'm missing of some stuff. hmm..... OH YES... DIRTY BITCH YOU SHOULD GO BATHE NOW, SEE WHAT TIME ALR! STILL WC WITH ME! HUH! GO BATHE~~~!!! HEHAHOOOOO! =^O^=

2009-12-18T15:29:00.000+12:00

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way...

sighsighsigh, would be leaving early in the morning tml. flight's 830am. Gotta reach by 6am! Mean i gotta wake up by 4am! Rather not sleep, hmm. We'll see who's sweet and text me b4 i leave. I have afew in mind to text alr, h3h3h3. Okay. Bye shit. I hope i enjoy my trip. 8 days... Alright, shall find wilson and jojo l8tr to pass ticks. Aw manz, so sad. I'm gonna mizz my curly hair boi. LOL. Good thing it isn't my handsome golden hair :>

2009-12-17T21:28:00.000+12:00

Humph. Took that picture when i was more then maximum a happy gurl >: Nevermind, alot of friends around are trying to turn me back to my 101% happy gurl. I shall not let you guyz down. Sigh, leaving in 2 days. And won't be back till the 26 @ nitez. Why do i feel so not excited. Hmm, i really wanna know what's the content in the letter. Oh well.. life's like that. Well, 8 days. Lets see what's gonna happen during my 8 days of absense hmmm.. Still packing my stuff 4 taiwan. There's so much to pack! Worst cos i've totally no mood 4 it. I feel so bored. Hm, i hope i'd enjoy my trip there. Not planning to bring thick clothes, how cold can it be there anw~ hahaha. Imy..

2009-12-16T23:23:00.000+12:00

Was supposed 2 meet sky this afternoon but didn't. So went down to Shauna's house. Haha, shared alot of xing shi with her. Had lunch/dinner @ j8 sakae sushi. She fed me till i became a kg heavier! Okay, joking.. Hm. She left 2 send her friend of, Algene came down 2 meet me. Got my blusher and another face powder 2day. Yay. Happy gurl.

P/s: 2 lay-ze 2 upload the rest. webcamming with bitch s nao. whoohoo. she so unglam, hahaha. nvrm. we both look like shxt.

2009-12-16T21:09:00.000+12:00

Herro. Me is berri bored. Friends in fb are quite entertaining, hehe. I have alot pictures spammed by my dearest brother shaun. Hiahia. Okay luh. I shall go edit the lightings and stuff and i'd blog again. Bye happy people! :> Idk why are my pix here of such weird sizes. Hmm..

2009-12-15T13:55:00.000+12:00

I was sleeping so soundy.. and i woke up in terror. S2pit nightmares i have.

Read felicia's twitter just now. Saw something bout 1994 girls would need to go for ns. Tsk, the first thing that came 2 my mind was 'Wtf, my nightmare's true!' Terrifying. I can't rmb much bout my dream though.. I now it started of with zailiang stealing food. (HAHA) Then he got caught. Then the next thing i realised, we were at some campsite. Most prolly that was when the army part started~. The tent was big and longgggg. I saw sky, and some fucking wanna be gangsters from my school. First reaction -> Wtf, what'r they doing in my dream. And the worst part was.. wtf was i even doing there! Okay. I saw sky's ex. (hm, my dream just told me that it was his ex, idk how's that tho) I sat beside sky and she was clingy to him. Hm. Even my dream's upsetting me -_- So poor me. Just sat there and emo. K, no scene of being in army actually. But my dream told me that it was army! Okokok. S2pit dream. But damn mean. Even in my dreams you're treating me coldy. Argh. I'm scared nao :<

Ohoh. Worst. I dreamt that my phone screen crack and totally couldn't contact him. Wokeup wokeup wokeup!!!!! Phew, i didn't dare to go back 2 sleep.. So hai pe0ple. Imma walking z0mbii3. I've tuition 2nite somemore. Wlaowlaowlao. And i'm a fucking new face. I don't like 2 make new friends when people stare :<

2009-12-14T22:45:00.000+12:00

I had the mindset of STUDYING 2day. But thanks to my wonderful bitch, i didn't do much. Lemme see.. I did afew Qs of 3 different chapters. Tsk, failure. Anyway, many people were around too, so was a lil awkward to be studying while the rest were doing their own things but studying. And what's more, who studies at the smoking are, me. Hahaha. Cocky.

Weilong came down to tp to meet me for awhile after that. Walked over to grandma's house since i was nearby. Brought my cousin for ice cream and went back up to the house. Dad and mom came to pick us up round 7. My cousins just left my place. K, bye! I should start studying tml. And do some packing for my trip. I am not excited at all, someone, please excite me? Lmao. I think i studied my camera instead of amaths 2day. Haha i suck.

2009-12-13T17:05:00.000+12:00

Am i healing fast enough? I should be in the midst of healing already. I am, i am...

2009-12-12T22:19:00.000+12:00

As i walked slowly to the busstop yesterday, thinking back about those time spent tgt.. when was the last time i took a bus home at night myself. Hmm. As i walked down the path to my condo, I thought of that only time when we took a bus back tgt and you walked me home. When i saw cabs, i thought of the times you sent me home in em'.

Well, time 2 4get bout love. It's time i really pull up my socks and do well in my studies or sometime. I should at least do well in something since i've failed in love. I never expected so many to worry 4 me, guess there's many ppl supporting me behind my back! I'd be strong 4 u'guys. Really thankful! :>

Had tuition this morning, new environment, quite happy with my new tuition teacher. Yay, like at last i've found a replacement. I shall study hard study hard study hard! I'd do well next year. I won't text in class, i won't eat in class (if i can...), i won't sleep in class, i'd stfu in class, i'd be the teachers pet. Haha, fuck myself.

2009-12-05T21:52:00.000+12:00

Fuck my life.

2009-12-01T00:22:00.000+12:00

Yay!!! :>

Met shermaine this afternoon, went to school to collect some stuff. To realise that they've thrown my books away.... well well, nvrm i asked 4 it. But worst thing's that i don't know what books have they thrown! Haha i suck.

Went to j8 after that. Popular>Sony Ericsson>Library(I finish my mole chapt!!!^^)>Popular. Got my sec4 emaths tb @ last, haha i'm so excited! Whoo. Lets start studying ppl! ^.^ Omg, but i swear it's fucking annoying when my sists all goes 'Aye mommy, en's studying man.' Uh fuck them, dampen my mood to study only -_- Juz lemme study in peaze plzxszxs.

Met bbyluv after that (F)(K)(L) ^^ ^^ ^^

2009-11-29T22:25:00.000+12:00

I don't know what 2 do nao... Whatever that's happening's making me really confused.

You're the only one that've made me feel this way b4. I never felt so lost. I never cried over someone for really long. I never expected myself to love someone so much. I never knew this would happen. But i know, after what happened ytd, i thought.. i'd have lost you 4ever. You told me, that we were given a second chance to know each other when we got to know each other better. You were the one always there for me when i was down. You cheered me up and stopped me from crying. But why's everything different now? When was about to meet you 4 that few minutes today, as i walked i don't know why, but i felt that i was afraid of seeing you. I was afriad that i'd burst to tears. I held it all back. You were in a bad mood. I'm sorry 4 not being able to make you feel better. But i just wanna let you know that everything's happened not because that's your fault, everyone is. Not only you. And just to let you know, it is you whom i love. I don't give a fuck to whatever people thinks about you, i just care about how i think about you. And your past isn't affecting me, i won't get affected, ever. It's you whom i love, understand? I won't be afraid of what's gonna happen in future, so long as you'd stay, and not leave... I love you really much bbi.

Met Jeslyn this morning and trained down to tamp, cabbed down to tamp church and had kfc. Had many small talks, yay. Alright, i've summarized everything alr. And plz people, i've alr said that my new fb is for friends only. Stop adding if i don't know you.